Catch-22

Have seen the highs & the lows...
Have seen the tides turn upside down.

Sometimes everything's so clear,
Sometimes life's a Catch-22 situation.
I guess I am still at the crossroads.
Maybe thats where this feeling arise.

Smoke from my nostrils isn't anger,
It isn't fear , isn't joy for sure.
Maybe its something that keeps me alive,
Maybe one day its going to end my life.

Some shower praise,many criticize,
Many Flounder , few scale heights.
I know I surmise too much,
Maybe that confuses my poems outright.

Was that a Catch-22 ? ?
Hey No ,thats my Life. :)

Abhinav
(4th May'07)

Still Oughta Believe . . . . . . . .

Her charming smile has turned
In to a cynical one..
But I still ought to believe,
She’s got to be the one.

Mesmerized by her beauty &
Infatuated with her smile,
The dreams turn in to a reality,
When she excoriates me & I run …
But I still ought to believe,
She’s got to be the one.


It was a brutal assault
As she left no stone unturned…
It felt like someone bangin’ my head,
Just to have some fun.

As I wept in wilderness,
She came back with a taunt,
“That only fools make love,
Smart girls just Fuck "
But I still ought to believe,
She’s gotta be the one.

As a love struck Romeo,
I still call her at times..
&
In ebriated state,
I still catch her sight,
Just can’t help it,
It ain’t my fault...

This head never stops spinnin’
And reminiscing her all the time.
As I still believe,
She will be the one . . . . . .

ABHINAV
11th JAN'07
11:30 P.M.

Don't Give Up ..........

Hav you ever been deprieved of something you felt was yours ?
Hav you felt lost for words when you needed them most ?
Hav you felt numb at times when the obstinate mind refused to budge?
Hav you lost battles and carried on in hope of winning the war?

I have and I believe everybody has too.

The world is there to be won,
don't lose it without trying.
The life is there to be lived,
don't die,continue prying.

Path is downtrodden and obstacles
stand on your way to zenith.
Either stay down mesmerized
or simply conquer your mind.
Stand tall and smash the life's
googly forty rows back.
Be the finicky who gained his
identity by striving continuously.

Don't lose heart this time if you lose.
Remember as this sophomore poet says,
The biggest losers are those who
gave it up without trying.

Abhinav(9 th sept,06)

LIFE,FOOTBALL,INDIA !!!

Friday, July 07, 2006

LIFE , FOOTBALL , INDIA ! ! ! !
Life is football or football is life,
that I can't really decide and
I would leave that to you to surmise.
It only takes a few minutes for people
to realize,that patriotism in their hearts
is kicking and alive.

One goal is his "Renaissance",
for yesterday he was called a "Has been".
As Zidane soars and Ronaldinho mourns,
frenzy is there for all to see with our eyes.
Now I feel that life isn't fair,
as I watch greatest of players disappear,
Fire in their hearts still burning alive,
but their chance to perform has come and gone by.

Players stake their claim at immortality,
by divulging to us their innate talent on field.
They want to be named along with
" PELE and MARADONA"
And the stage called world cup is for all to see.

Being in india I watch live games at midnight
and catapult with joy as other nations rejoice !
Conscientiously I feel sorry for Brazil
and Argentina,
But my biggest regret is Indian team missing
from the arena.I hope one day our team will
be playing real high and winning the world cup
is a dream we'll realize.

Meanwhile,It's 2:30 at night and the match is finished,
So I'd better go and get a good sleep at night.
In my sleep I dreamt of playing for my country,
Was about to score a goal but it turned out otherwise.
It felt like a red card but soon I realize ,
it was my dearest mommy waking me up at 11:05.

Abhinav (3:00 a.m) ,7th july'06

Conundrum of Life

They say life is a conundrum,
So please help me in it being defined.
The more I try to solve it,
More the imbroglio catches me before trying.
May be I need an anodyne,
to help me appease my confused mind.
One day I feel on top of the world,
Next day I've fallen right behind.
Sometimes I think i cerebrate too much,
Maybe that leads to me writing on these lines.

So far my life has been a bricolage,
coz' the ride has solely been a carpe diem.
I hope the nidus of commonsense in this brain of mine,
helps me get over this grind.
Ab initio I have been a hedonist,
but the transformation train to
becoming an ascetic is running on the line.
These machiavellian ways of people,
have always kept me thinking twice.
Ohh!! this so called poem is about to end
and I guess the conundrum of life is something
that cannot be defined.

Abhinav( 8th july'06 )
posted by abhinav at 12:58 PM

Gutting down Bitch's memories

Not an hour passes by,
and her thought comes again.
Her face transcends before me
in this ephemeral fit of madness !
She has a smirk on her face,
with an air of indifference towards me.
It feels like a screeching sound made
by nails on a metal.
Reminiscing her,I fall in to a state of
apathy and daze.

I hope i could follow Sherlock Holmes's saying:
"Never trust a women ,
not even the best of them".
But I guess it's hard for me to survive without trust,
and trust is what I showed in her ! !
She's gone now , may be forever &
I shall miss her & her flirtatious smile,
her apocryphal excuses,her dexterity in telling lies,
her collusion towards me and her antipathy towards my life.

They said I was headstrong and foolish,
but that's what happens when you feel you've fallen in love.
I was lonely before but loneliness never haunted me.
I can't forget her and those dreams,
shattered by her with scorn.
Sometimes I think it was my fault,
but when I look back I find none ! ! !

I loved her as much as I could ,
and gave her the best kisses,best roses,best chocolates,
best mornings and nights,it was true love for me alright.
In the end I feel deserted, someone please tell me why ? ?

Slowly my head's geting normal and I'm beginning
to realize that sluts don't love , they love to fuck high.
They mint good money and make fun of ur life.
Bitch what u've done to me was fun for you rite,
wait till my fun starts to take a toll on your life.

(Kindly treat this as a work of fiction,nothing personal here...lol)

Abhinav, 30th July(1:18 A.M.)